The Feeling Pen

You are sipping a hot cup of coffee at your home. The coffee seems irresistible to you. It's foam is inviting you to indulge into the taste of heaven. The aroma of coffee is tempting. You take a sip and it soothes your throat and relaxes your frozen body. You know there's no other feeling of enjoying hot coffee when you have sore throat. Well, it's not necessary to have a sore throat to have coffee but you know that feeling of relaxation when you gulp it down. Have a good time! Then as your eyes avert outside the window. You stand up from your couch, take few steps to the window where you see the view of the street below. The Christmas lights decorated beautifully all along the street. The lights making a loop, curve, climbing up and down across the buildings. People enjoying a conversation and having a great time. Pedestrians walking across the street as they engage on their phones or carrying bags of goodies. It's an enrapturing scenario which one cannot es

The elevator door closed. She took a deep breath and exhaled heavily unaware that every action of hers was being captured on the CCTV camera. Out of an impulse, she fell to the ground and began shedding tears.The tears flowed endlessly. Countless thoughts were running on her mind and all because people enjoyed meddling in her affairs. She is waiting for the right one who'll know her soul  "Why can't I find the one who's meant for me? How long do I have to survive like this? Is there no way to escape from this pain? What good is this life for? Am I not just failing every time?"  These were the train of thoughts that had clouded her mind. All she wanted was peace. But yearning for peace in a place where only turmoil existed was hard to find.  When someone asked her,"How are you?"  What she replied was,"I am good, how are you?" What she wanted to say was "I am drowning, could you lend a hand please?" But would anybody

Ever since we are born, we look for love from others. First, it's our parents in infancy then friends in adolescence and finally a life partner in adulthood. That's how it is and the problem in all these stages is, we are never taught to love ourselves. We constantly search for unconditional, pure love from the world but not in our souls. And it's sad because you end up giving priority to others not yourself. You begin to find someone in your quest thinking he/she may love you. You give sole importance to their beauty, confidence and personality. But what about your beauty? Are you not beautiful that you stand in front of the mirror and tell your self 'I am beautiful' instead of looking for validation and compliments from others? Are you not confident enough to work on your health and fitness? Can't you just say to yourself 'Yes, I am improving and I'll get better as the days pass by' ?  Can't you focus on improving your personality?

Here's my empathy to all the one-sided lovers out there who have been hurt tremendously again and again due to the unrequited love by their best friend, friend or just another desirable soul. You must be thinking why am I having feelings of deep empathy for you right?  Well dear, You may not know but I have been there, gone through all of that chaos and turmoil which you may be suffering at present. The peculiar feeling when you know that the person whom you have met or bumped into is the one who's meant for you but unlikely due to circumstances or fate the other one is not able to recognize that you are the one who will hold their hand and stay together forever. He saw her from a far distance waiting for her friends in the mall. Every time he saw her, his heart said, " I know it's you" but wondered in reality if they would ever be together. He was afraid of the rejection he would likely have to face if he proposes her and that's why he never had the

Yesterday I was sitting patiently at McDonald's waiting for my takeaway order to arrive. As the staff members were getting my order ready I looked outside the main road where cars and auto rickshaws made endless honking to free themselves from the ongoing traffic.To my surprise, I saw a couple holding hands as they entered swiftly inside the McD. I couldn't help but notice how madly they seemed to be in love as if struck by the bow of cupid's arrow. They stood right in front of the counter and the boy asked the girl what she would like to order. It appeared to me as if i had already seen this couple before because of the way they were acting. Right! I felt the deja vu experience. And then it came to my mind about a particular memory where my friend Tanvi had asked me the question while we were sipping cold coffee. "Why are you still single yaar?" Tanvi asked  "Because I haven't found someone yet that would make me feel butterflies in the stomach!

He decided to break up and without any reason disappeared from your life.Now, your life at the moment may seem like a trampled rose and you may be feeling as if someone just twisted your heart and then walked away. And still you love him and want him back. Does the pain hurt you?  Yes Does it make you feel as if your world has collapsed? Definitely! Are you unable to sleep at nights because of the countless thoughts thinking he would someday appear at your doorstep miraculously? Of Course! Well, dear! I know you are in immense pain and when I would ask you how you are feeling, may be you wouldn't have any right words to describe your misery. May be all you want me to do is sit and try to feel your wretched silence. However, I'll try my best to listen to you sweetheart. I know at this moment all you want to ask is," Why did he left me?", "Will he ever come back?" and "Would we get back together again?"  So, if you think I'

"Life As It is" Well, when you read these lines, does something strike your mind? Does it sound quite simple? Of course it does! We all should live our lives as it is and not make it a mess the way we make.  What are we supposed to do to make it simple? Not a rocket science though, just wake up early in the morning, follow your time table and sleep on time at night. But what are we doing? Sleeping late at nights by unnecessarily scrolling through the social networking sites and then complaining of insomnia or sleepless nights or eating junk when we know that at the end of the day we are going to complain about stomachache or overeating. Sadly, we tend to make it troublesome on our own and we don't even want to listen to others because we think they are wrong and they don't know how hard it is to live in today's times. So are we waiting to meet a fatal accident where our lives change considerably and then we feel we were doing it all wrong in the past?

It's distressing and saddening to see that your mind can trick you by throwing you into a storm of vortex. Your mind constantly tries to remind you how you are incapable to do things and fall into the overwhelming feelings of depression. In life, there are going to be ups and downs and that's normal because that's a part and parcel of your life. Nevertheless you have to deal with it. But in today's time when you are low and are feeling blues, sadly there's no one to hold your hand and make you feel better. To be frank, don't rely always on someone to pick you up when you are down and vulnerable. Being dependent all the time is also not a good sign especially when you know that you are living alone or that the experiences you are having or struggling with cannot be similar in comparison to others. So, the question here is what must you do when your mind is always racing and not coming to a halt? What must you do when your mind keeps you in a stat

It was a pleasant day outside.There was no trace of sunlight and the grey clouds lazily floated in the sky. The shadow of the clouds fell on the skyscrapers and on the people walking on the pedestal. Only for the lovers this particular day was a refreshment. They would call each other and make plans of a long drive or to a hill station for some days. The girl sitting next to the window would think if she would get bright rays of sunlight today. No, she was not at all delighted with this weather. She was already grief-stricken with the loss of her love. Her eyes displayed colours of dejection and wretchedness. Her nose turning red due to sobbing. Her lips rough and dry like a dead leaf. They say you need someone to stand by you when you are overwhelmed with your fate and the role the circumstances come to play with. But on the other hand, this is also the bitter truth that nobody is there for you. No one. You may think your friends will understand you for they have been at your goo

It was raining for quite a long time and she regretted not bringing her umbrella today. Everyday she would bring her umbrella but it would never rain not even for once. But just today it slipped from her mind and the dark clouds rumbling with loud noises took great advantage of it. It rained and rained and flooded the streets. Now, she tried all ways to find someone lend their umbrella. Some would say, "sorry I just got one", "sorry, I can't give", "Ask him/her if they have a spare one". And so one by one people declined sharing their umbrella. She would think how insensitive of them. But that's how people behave in their defense; strange and selfish. As the heavy grey clouds hovered above slowly in the sky and darkened the atmosphere making it gloomy, she would feel dejected by everyone's denial to help her. Without any ado, she stood up from her desk, took her purse and walked out of the office. She couldn't helplessly keep asking th

Well, you must be wondering what the title means exactly? Don't you? Isn't this the only thing that grabbed your attention?  Without any further delay, I'll explain what I want to say with my title. So, Swimming in between the past and present means that you are wandering to places but it leads you nowhere.  Past which means your past life; your memories, your good and bad days that have passed by and so on. Whereas present means today; the continuity, the time that is moving slowly at it's pace.  The important question here is why would one literally dwindle or get themselves entangled between past and present? The answer is no simple but it's not even complicated. In fact, It's no mysterious problem to be solved. To be frank, we all are totally messed up in today's life. There is no certainty. We all are trying to find ourselves, find something we exactly are not aware of. Something that is missing in our life, some part of us.  It's this

Aunty came early at home, Netra immediately messaged me to come right away. I sensed that very moment that something must have happened. While I came in, She was sitting on the sofa and it seemed as if she were waiting for me only. Her grey eyes expressed displeasure. She spoke with a voice full of authority. "Listen Chakshu, I have come to know everything about Netra and Laksh." "This evening when I came back, My driver said that he had seen her with a boy elder to her trying to hold her by the arm as if persuading her to do something in the lobby." She said "So you Know" I sighed "Yes, Do not Interrupt while I am speaking" She scolded "Although I did not believe in his words but at home when she had gone to bathroom, the same guy had messaged her on whats app" "I read all the conversations between them" "I want to know that if you knew everything about this then why didn't you tell me? Even whe