The Feeling Pen

When she wanted your attention, you were busy giving someone else your attention.  When she wanted you, you neglected her and pretended like she never existed. When she called you, you rejected and skipped her calls. When she texted you first, you only replied then.  When she was the first one to call, you didn't appreciate her confidence. When she confessed her feelings, you pretended like she was a desperate woman wanting relationship like anything.  Yes, you as a guy were never the one to call or text her first as you didn't have the guts to do that while she did. You never complimented her when she truly looked beautiful but kept it in the recesses of your heart. You never proclaimed your love or affections for her.  You denied her the love, the attention, the respect, the time and efforts she kept waiting for so long. You treated her like a piece of crap. You never truly loved her for if you did, you would have never denied your feelings for her at the first

I know you want to leave this earth as soon as possible, just because you have failed miserably in fulfilling your dream. I know you imagine yourself not waking up anymore. Before you sleep you imagine how you will never wake up again. I know you create fantasies where there are none. You want to believe that at least there's someone in this world who cares for you even when you know there's no one. I know you want to believe in the fact that you are not alone but your mind doesn't lead you astray. It takes you to the time where you feel unwanted all the time. I know you want to live in a world where there's no suffering, no pain, no struggle, no depression, no anxiety, in fact nothing at all but you know that kind of world doesn't exist in reality.  Reality is unbearable as hard as it may be to accept.  I know you want to wake up every morning thinking that finally today is the day you will be famous, wanted, loved, admired and adored. You truly wait fo

To those who think life is over now, just because they lost one opportunity, I am here to say, don't bend down now, there are many more opportunities that will show up. It's not the end. To those who feel that they have got nothing to live up to, I am here to say that why don't you look ahead and watch out for the things that wait for you, I bet there is sunshine ahead just behind the dark shadow of clouds. Behind the darkness is a little glimmer of hope that is waiting for you. To those who think that they waited for this one golden opportunity for so long and lost it now, I am here to say, may be that thing wasn't meant for you. No doubt, so much time has been wasted but may be you shouldn't overlook the fact that you have learnt something out of this tragedy. Something better, is waiting for you in few baby steps, don't bend down now. To those who think that life is unfair to you and much privileged to others. May be, right now you are living in